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I blinked. Where was I now? Everything was a big white void. I didn't see anypony else.

I looked down at myself. The claw marks had healed over, though they did leave some recognizable scars. Guess I was going to have to rely on Fluttershy to do the modeling after all. Too bad, all that attention, all those ponies looking at me, it appealed to me, even if it scared 'Shy silly.

Then I noticed, almost passively, that I wasn't quite all there anymore. I was still standing just fine, but one of my wings and part of my hind left leg were turning into little pieces of light before my eyes and floating away, becoming impossible to tell from the white void. It didn't hurt, I don't think I even felt it. I couldn't see my insides where the little bits floated away. Maybe I never had insides, wouldn't surprise me. It was spreading.

Why wasn't I scared? I was dying, wasn't I? Oh right, you had to be alive to die, so it wasn't like I was losing anything by dying in the first place. Or was that last place? Oh well. What could have caused this though?

"Oh right. Stupid me. Guess 'Little-FlutterRage' was right. I'm the daughter of the old man's magic ... and he's about as far from harmony as you can get. So makes sense using an Element of Harmony and getting a full, a point blank blast from the peace and love laser canon would erase me too. Meh. Least I didn't go out with a whimper this time, and the bearers all saw it." I threw back my head and laughed as part of my shoulder dissolved.

"Pst. Good riddance to a farce of a fake existence. Good riddance to nopony who was never anypony, good riddance to something that was never anything."

I laid back on whatever I was standing on, though the view didn't change one bit.

"'Time to be cruel.' Those were the first words I heard when I was born, who'd have thought I'd go out doing the exact opposite? Bet the old man would love that surprise. Oh well, now it's time to not be anything."

"Sorry dear, you're too young to die. You just earned your cutie mark." A hoof gently touched my shoulder.

The white sparkles stopped, then 'scattered' and I was surprisingly whole again. I looked up into Fluttershy's kind and understanding eyes. Fluttershy; the butter yellow, pink maned Pegasus with bright blue eyes, not Princess Gaia the Alicorn, nor the Nightmare. "You haven't even had your Cute-ceañera yet. Do you think you'll pick out a Cute-ceañera Name? Lots of ponies do that during their Cute-ceañera. Should be easier for you, since you don't have any paper work to fill out. Maybe something like Helping Hoof? Like your cutie mark? …I mean if you really like that name, it's what you'd be called for the rest of your life, so it should be something you like…"

Still laying on my back, I glared at her. "I told you, 'Fluttercruel' might be just a name, but it's all I have and I'm keeping it! And dammit, since when do YOU enjoy torturing others! That was supposed to be my job! I don't have a purpose! I'm just a loose thread for a scheme that fell apart! I don't have a past or future! I'll always just be nothing but a bucking carnival mirror reflection of you! I'll always be exactly the same until you grow old and we die together!" I rolled over on my belly. "Just go away and let me die already." I said sulking, crossing my forelegs. "I'm the one who did this to you. I've earned oblivion. So just let me take my end with some dignity this time."

"No. You're my responsibility. You wanted to teach me. It's my fault for not being able to take the lesson like a mare and acting like a filly. And none of my friends are permanently hurt and I'm fine now. I forgive you."

"You can't forgive something that doesn't exist."

"Ponies who don't exist can't earn their cutie mark. And that doesn't look like a blank flank to me."

I glanced at my flanks, seeing the two hooves. "You'd think I'd get a big mallet or three spiders or something. It's funny, I don't really feel all that different. Where's the big change inside? Where's the ... ya know, 'inner awakening' or whatever?"

"Erm, sorry if I sound too much like Twilight but, uh, ahem: 'There is no grand realization of self. The self simply is.'" Then Fluttershy's voice took on a stern tone, "Now stop all this nonsense about not having purpose and not existing. 'Nothing' couldn't have used the Element of Kindness to wash away the darkness. A pony without a spirit wouldn't fight so hard to save somepony else. A pony without a purpose doesn't earn her cutie mark. A poor reflection of a pony can't earn a unique cutie mark," Then came the softness that was Fluttershy's signature. "And, I have to say, for someone whose not even six months old, earning your cutie mark is something you -really- ought to be proud of." Fluttershy hugged me. "I know I'm proud of you…"

She said she was proud of me. She hugged me. This was ... this was the first time anyone in my life, yes, LIFE, had ever hugged me. Why did it feel so nice? Why didn't I want it to stop? Why did I want Fluttershy to just stay here beside me? What was this feeling? It was all like invisible weights I didn't know were there were just falling away, something that had been holding me in, something that had been caging me.

"I ... I'm free."

"WE'RE FREE!" Corrected Fluttershy with more conviction then she could remember having in her life.

"So ... what now 'Shy?"

"I think there's one last part of me that needs help finding her way back, but that's something only our friends can do. Come on 'Cruel, let's go home."

"I told you not to call-... alright, let's go."
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In this chapter Fluttercruel awakens in a white empty space. While her wounds did heal, they did leave visible scars behind. This sums up what all characters experienced. Their past isn’t dead and the effects will be long-lasting. Her first thought is regret about not being able to model. She really liked the idea of getting attention like that, like she did show with her dance number in the club. Then she notices that she is vanishing. While the process is completely painless, it is heartbreaking to see her disappear after everything she accomplished. Again doubts of her own existence cross her mind. Unlike Discord she isn’t afraid of the end but she misinterprets her lack of fear as a sign of not being alive. Then she realizes that the undead foal must be right and being born by Discord’s magic did make Harmony her natural weakness. But unlike last time she vanished, she has no regrets. The last time she left a corrupted Fluttershy behind, this time Fluttercruel was ready to sacrifice herself to heal her other half. She knew this could happen and she did it anyway. And despite all of that she still believes that she never was a person. She talks about the irony of being created as a cruel version of Fluttershy, only be become an Element of Kindness and heal Fluttershy. Discord would hate this kind of irony.

But her kind half will not let her perish. In a heart-warming scene she tells Fluttercruel that she is too young to die, after all she just got her cutie mark. One gentle touch is enough to stop the process and heal the wounded soul. It is Fluttershy who does this, not Princess Gaia or Nightmare Whisper, just Fluttershy. And she just keeps going. She calmly talks about Fluttercruel’s upcoming Cute-ceañera and that the cruel half could change her name if he wanted to. Fluttershy suggests Helping Hoof. A name that doesn’t fit her cruel half at all but the suggestion itself is typical for the kind half and the last proof that Fluttershy is back. But Fluttercruel doesn’t want to give up her first proof of her own existence. Her name was the starting point of a journey that let her become an Element of Kindness. She did grow so much, but their journey isn’t over. Then she sarcastically remarks that suggesting “Helping Hoof” is Fluttershy’s way of torturing her. But the cruel half still claims that she is no person and just a parody of the fluttering pegasus. She thinks oblivion is her deserved punishment for her unintentional corruption of Fluttershy. But the kind half sees her own faults in the Princess Gaia incident. She acted like a child running away from reality when Fluttercruel confronted her with the unkind parts of nature, she did ignore and suppress for so long. And in the end none of her friends were permanently hurt in the battle against Nightmare Whisper. And Fluttercruel is responsible for that as well. She was able to escape from nonexistence, cut her connection to the Nightmare, counter her irresistible stare, inspire Twilight to awaken her Element and help the heroes when they needed the Element of Kindness the most. She has earned her forgiveness.

Fluttercruel would have never suspected that her cutie mark could be something like this, she was hoping for something symbolizing strength or her sense of humour. But she is surprised how little did change for her, she feels just like before. Maybe that means that her cutie mark only reflects her true being. She did help to knock out Pinkie Pie to stop her from working herself to death and calm down Rainbow Dash when she was starting to turn into a Nightmare. Despite not wanting to admit it, she wanted to help those in need of help. Then Fluttershy tries to emulate Twilight with a short lecture about the nature of self. But she tells her cruel half very seriously to stop those claims of nonexistence. She did use the Element of Kindness, proving that she does exist. She fought beyond what anyone thought was possible to protect someone else, proving the strength of her will and soul. She didn’t only earn a cutie mark but a unique one, proving once and for all that she is her own person. And Fluttercruel did all of this despite being only 6 months old. Fluttershy is so proud of her and here in this strange white space, she can do what she could never do before and hugs her other half. Fluttercruel is moved by her gesture of kindness. She never felt so good in her entire life. Finally she feels alive. Both are free but Fluttershy isn’t saved completely. To free her from her chains there is something her friends still have to do. Now both walk forward.

Overall this is a short, yet wonderful chapter about Fluttercruel almost vanishing. A pony born of Chaos was taught kindness and used what she had learned to save her corrupted kind half. But kindness is always returned with interest and in turn Fluttershy was there for her cruel half when she needed her the most. The name of the chapter goes back to the very first chapter of the Reharmonized Ponies story, where Fluttershy brought up the comparison to the process of the creation of a pearl: A tiny bit of sand becomes a beautiful pearl inside an oyster. Not only does it fit Fluttercruel perfectly but it also describes the journeys the other characters experienced. They are more than what they started as.

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Guilrel Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2012
Wow, that's something. I guess it's not that different from all fo the anime that I've seen. Better go to the next part to see if they're really outside or inside.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012
"Wow, that's something."

Which part?

" I guess it's not that different from all fo the anime that I've seen."

Hmmmmm?

"Better go to the next part to see if they're really outside or inside."

Hmmmmm?
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Guilrel Featured By Owner May 17, 2012
Which part?

This is basically the shortest chapter part I have ever read in this series. To be honest I thought the rest of the parts would be riculously short as well. ^^;

Hmmmmm?x2

Basically, I saw that as the "white void inside the body/soul" cliche that I've seen in anime where the character talks to herself about what she learned. But real strange thing is that I actually saw Fluttershy and Fluttercruel talking to each other in there as a cliche, and that's what worries me. :confused:
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DracoDei Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
SPOILER ALERT!!!






Everything was a big white void. I didn't see anypony else.
-Having been dragged to something like Hell, she now gets to see Heaven?

Too bad, all that attention, all those ponies looking at me, it appealed to me, even if it scared 'Shy silly.
-On the other hand I could see her making it work as... well imagine Meatloaf as a female pony. Nice guy in his personal life(or, at the least, has stuck to one marriage), but you wouldn't know it to listen to his songs.

leg was turning into little pieces of light before my eyes and floating away,
-"were" not "was" I think. Also, I that MAY be the parts of her that are being made physical first (starting from one cutie-mark, and her Element... except I don't think her element was on a wing).

"Oh right. Stupid me. Guess 'Little-FlutterRage' was right.
-Oh, DUH! Of course the foal was flutterrage...

Good riddance to nopony who was never anypony, good riddance to something that was never anything."
-Lyrics to the music I recommend for when she realizes what is going on (if I am right): [link] I Dare You to Move by Switchfoot.

I laid back on whatever I was standing on, though the view didn't change one bit.
-FEATURELESS white void... good subtle reminder...

Bet the old man would love that surprise.
-Oh yes... he would "love" it... just like he "loved" it when Fluttershy forced him to pry her metaphysical legs open rather than taking her PCP/LSD cocktail like a weak little filly... or how he "Loved" it when it turned out that the Mane Six had gotten the antidote. Fluttercruel is... well, I think the term would be "the incarnation of the snark knight".

"Sorry dear, you're too young to die. You just earned your cutie mark." A hoof gently touched my shoulder.
-Celestia, Luna, or Rainicorn? Also, foals die young all the time... all parties involved know this.


The white sparkles stopped, then 'scattered' and I was surprisingly whole again.
-So the sparkles WERE her spirit disolving?

I looked up into Fluttershy's kind and understanding eyes.
-Was it Fluttershy who Fluttercruel heard before? Also, I wonder if she will be changing her name? Probably not. The irony would suit her.

Do you think you'll pick out a Cute-ceaņera Name?
-Ah, that would explain how the names match the personality/cutie-mark so well... not an uncommon theory.

Should be easier for you, since you don't have any paper work to fill out.
-Oh, I don't know... If I were Celestia or Fluttershy I would consider it a good ego-building exercise to make her fill out her own birth-certificate with the date of Gaia's defeat being her... no, the day of Discord would be her conception and... we will put when she first "woke up" after Discord's defeat as her birthday. It makes more sense since that is when she started to be able to think for herself.

I glared at her.
-Yep... still the same Fluttercruel.

but it's all I have and I'm keeping it!
-To be expected, and it should work as an interesting surprise to let her get close to various emos.

I'll always be exactly the same until you grow old and we die together!"
-And here is where Fluttershy (or someone... actually probably NOT Fluttershy), brings up the fact that she has her own body now?

"Ponies who don't exist can't earn their cutie mark. And that doesn't look like a blank flank to me."
-I would have mentioned the body before the cutie-mark, but since Gaia was creating (rather than merely transforming?) thousands of birds, that arguement actually holds less water in the long-run.

You think I'd get a big mallet or three spiders or something.
-"You would" or "You'd"... And that wasn't your talent it was your upbringing by your father.THAT mare did indeed deserve death, and is, indeed well on her way to it... the sin nature (or "old man" but that gets confusing in that context) as we Christians would call it. Or rather a large part of it, since I think Fluttercruel is enough her own person to branch out into other temptations and sins. Certainly the pole-dancing doesn't seem like the sort of thing Discord would have gone for.

Where's the ... ya know, 'inner awakening' or whatever?"
-If I understand cutie-marks, she has her cause and effects reversed... the only emotional/spiritual effect of the cutie-mark is the joy of having your realization verified.

'There is no grand realization of self. The self simply is.'
-What? That doesn't fit to me at all... of course, even after getting one's mark one doesn't know EVERYTHING about yourself... it is only one step of many before it, and many MANY after it.

And, I have to say, for someone whose not even six months old, earning your cutie mark is something you -really- ought to be proud of.
-Even with a big-head-start (full vocabulary, and all that implies about understanding of the world, etc), this is very true.

this was the first time anyone in my life, yes, LIFE, had ever hugged me.
-Only because it is the first time you had a seperate body to hug... didn't Fluttershy hug herself to hug her once? I don't know... Also, I assume that the capitalized word "Life" means she accepts the premise?

Why didn't I want it to stop?
-Because even when you wanted oblivion MORE you wanted affection? Guess she really DIDN'T realize this but it seems SLIGHTLY odd... ah well, I guess she has had a hectic week.

"WE'RE FREE!" Corrected Fluttershy with more conviction then she could remember having in her life.
-Fluttershy is free of the Nightmare, and... well I guess that was what was holding Fluttercruel, but in a different way... Actually she probably means some of their internal hang-ups. Fluttershy feeling like she has to save everyone, and Fluttercruel feeling like she isn't worth saving.

I think there's one last part of me that needs help finding her way back, but that's something only our friends can do.
-Flutterrage, why would they need to do anything with her? Did FlutterRage get her own body too? That would seem a bit much. And how would her friends help? Or is she saying that her friends will help Fluttercruel to continue on the journey she has started? That doesn't sound like "one more".

"I told you not to call-... alright, let's go."
-Was that a nickname that Fluttershy used of Fluttercruel?
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012
Everything was a big white void. I didn't see anypony else.
-Having been dragged to something like Hell, she now gets to see Heaven?

Limbo.


"Sorry dear, you're too young to die. You just earned your cutie mark." A hoof gently touched my shoulder.
-Celestia, Luna, or Rainicorn? Also, foals die young all the time... all parties involved know this.

This is Equestria.

The white sparkles stopped, then 'scattered' and I was surprisingly whole again.
-So the sparkles WERE her spirit disolving?

Yes. Possibly.

I looked up into Fluttershy's kind and understanding eyes.
-Was it Fluttershy who Fluttercruel heard before? Also, I wonder if she will be changing her name? Probably not. The irony would suit her.

She's been steadfast about keeping her name.


Should be easier for you, since you don't have any paper work to fill out.
-Oh, I don't know... If I were Celestia or Fluttershy I would consider it a good ego-building exercise to make her fill out her own birth-certificate with the date of Gaia's defeat being her... no, the day of Discord would be her conception and... we will put when she first "woke up" after Discord's defeat as her birthday. It makes more sense since that is when she started to be able to think for herself.

They decided on either 'Shy's birthday or the day of chaos as her birthday. (The former for if/when she plays off as 'Shy's twin. The latter for if she wants it publicly know she is a spawn of evil and good that shouldn't exist.)


I glared at her.
-Yep... still the same Fluttercruel.

I just hope I can KEEP her personality.


You think I'd get a big mallet or three spiders or something.
-"You would" or "You'd"... And that wasn't your talent it was your upbringing by your father.THAT mare did indeed deserve death, and is, indeed well on her way to it... the sin nature (or "old man" but that gets confusing in that context) as we Christians would call it. Or rather a large part of it, since I think Fluttercruel is enough her own person to branch out into other temptations and sins. Certainly the pole-dancing doesn't seem like the sort of thing Discord would have gone for.

Reminds me of a line Celestia once told Luna,

"It was Nightmare Moon who deserved punishment, and has, she no longer is."


'There is no grand realization of self. The self simply is.'
-What? That doesn't fit to me at all... of course, even after getting one's mark one doesn't know EVERYTHING about yourself... it is only one step of many before it, and many MANY after it.

That's from my own experience. How I suddenly didn't become a new person when I went from a child to a man.

this was the first time anyone in my life, yes, LIFE, had ever hugged me.
-Only because it is the first time you had a seperate body to hug... didn't Fluttershy hug herself to hug her once?

Didn't occur to her I think.

I don't know... Also, I assume that the capitalized word "Life" means she accepts the premise?

YES!

Why didn't I want it to stop?
-Because even when you wanted oblivion MORE you wanted affection?

Not that she realized this.

Guess she really DIDN'T realize this but it seems SLIGHTLY odd... ah well, I guess she has had a hectic week.

In the end she's still a foal.

I think there's one last part of me that needs help finding her way back, but that's something only our friends can do.
-Flutterrage, why would they need to do anything with her?

Anger is a natural emotion for a healthy psyche?

Did FlutterRage get her own body too?

No.

"I told you not to call-... alright, let's go."
-Was that a nickname that Fluttershy used of Fluttercruel?

She didn't like her name being shortened before.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Mar 5, 2012
Okay. I need to say this now. Rainicorn was a sarcastic word Anarchy was using to describe Alicorns.
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DracoDei Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Ah, Ok!
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2012
Any way that can be fixed?
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DracoDei Featured By Owner Mar 10, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Nothing comes immediately to mind, other than to have the Alicorn eye-roll(or something) at it, and explicitly state the reason for this action.

"The alicorn eye-rolled at Anarchy's sophmoric insult with the made-up word 'rainicorn' which he had substittuted for 'alicorn'."

Ok, that is terrible, but it gives the idea.
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alexwarlorn Featured By Owner Mar 14, 2012
I'll keep it in mind.
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